A prayer of surrender: it’s not an easy subject or an easy way of life. In fact, it costs us everything. We hand over our every dream for our lives – every hope, every remnant of control we think we have – to God, and say, “You have it all. You have me. I am yours. Anything you want to do with me. Anything. I am in.”
I read the above excerpt from Jennie Allen’s book, Restless, a few weeks ago and fell to my knees in absolute awe. Jennie wrote in those few lines the very longing of my heart: to be totally surrendered to God’s will. One prayer I’ve shared previously is for God to use me however He sees fit and for me to be okay with it.
Is God good or what?
Flashback: I made a commitment in January to attend the women’s Tuesday night Bible studies hosted by my church fellowship. I very quickly realized my work responsibilities would heavily encroach on this time commitment. I wrestled, over the next several missed Tuesdays, with trying to continue the study or allow myself the time I needed to finish my work. It wasn’t a battle of urgent versus important but important versus important. After a lot of prayer and receiving wise counsel from my friend and Bible study teacher, I stepped away from the Tuesday night study.
I wistfully told her I needed to either find a study or lead a study that meets on the weekends or maybe during the summer. Her response? “Don’t wait for a fish to find you.” I love her! ❤
Fast forward to the present: I opened an email yesterday morning talking about a new summer study.
In that moment … I knew.
I knew it was time to step out and say, “I’m in.”
I forwarded the email to my accountability partner letting her know I had signed up to lead a study. I asked if she was interested and if she thought our Lifegroup sisters might be as well. She immediately responded with, “Yes, share this with them!” and then she asked if she could invite a colleague. Laughing, I said, “Of course!”
Today is a school holiday and I am ready to begin preparations to lead a summer study. What is it? It’s Jennie Allen’s new study, Anything.
Again, is GOD good or what?
As if I needed any more confirmation, check out today’s video from the Bible study I’m doing:
Message received, Papa. Please, no fish.