I am not a selfish person.
At least I don’t think I am.
I do, however, like my alone time and I get pretty “testy” if I don’t get it.
I’ve started making appointments with myself. It’s my “Me Time.” I don’t like to have anyone with me during my “Time.” Not even Hub. I don’t like to talk during this time. Or should I say, have human conversation. I’m constantly talking: to God, to myself, to the road, to the nature around me. I covet this time. I am alone and I like it.
I started a running program last Sunday and due to a multitude of issues (and lame excuses) have not been able to have my Me Time this week. I got so irritated yesterday that I almost started breaking dishes when I was loading the dishwasher. I stopped short of that. After all, we don’t have money to buy new dishes. The fact of the matter was I was so looking forward to lacing up my shoes and heading out the door once the thermometer read something warmer than the below freezing temp it had all morning. The day was wearing on, my precious morning was past, Hub wanted my attention, and I hadn’t had my Time.
I was beyond “testy” at that point …
I was livid!
I got myself so upset that I made myself sick.
I won’t do that again. It took me several hours to calm down enough where I could join Hub in the livingroom, albeit I never told him why I was so upset.
Worst of all, I didn’t get out to go run.
That’s not happening today. The temperature is again below freezing and I don’t care. All I’m waiting for is that first hint of sunlight and I’m out the door!
I love mornings and I need this Time.
I used to think the Pilot’s wife was selfish for insisting on carving time out of her day for herself. I’ve learned over time that she isn’t. I’ve also learned that people who do the same thing are healthier … mentally, physically, spiritually. Don’t ask me to site my source. I read it somewhere and filed the knowledge away in the wrinkles of my brain.
I started making my “Me Time” appointments a while ago and realized that when I actually do keep the appointments, my day seems to go that much better.
I don’t normally make New Year’s resolutions, but I will this year:
I resolve to make more “Me Time” appointments …
and KEEP them!